Hay, heto na naman ako, I can’t help myself but to
share the greatness of my father through this video as a tribute. Tomorrow,
April 12 is my father’s death anniversary. Actually, it’s his 7th
year already since his death due to heart attack on 2005. His unexpected death
was the hardest and painful thing I have ever felt. It was very heavy to accept
the fact that he’s gone too soon. It was too soon for me and my siblings
because all his dreams are just starting to fall into place at that time. Overwhelming ang mga nangyayari sa amin
noon. It was February when he began to build his two-storey family house - a
longed dream house of our own; my eldest sister also had her first ever
vacation in the Philippines since he moved to America two years ago to work as
a nurse; my youngest brother had his graduation from his architecture course on
March; and I had my midwifery graduation on April for my nursing course. All
these events were all his ambitions for us. His dream was to witness each one
of us receives our degree diploma in which he and my mother never had the
chance to experience due to poverty. And now that all his wishes came into
realizations, I couldn’t help but ask “What if Papa is still alive?”
look at 3:44 and 4:03 of the video; he is wiping his tears during my youngest brother's graduation
ceremony on 2005. A dream came true to see us all with degree.
Random Memories
When my siblings and I were just in high school, our ‘ulam’
is usually meat dish either of pork or chicken and he seldom brings home fish. As
a student who brings packed lunch in the school, I was happy with that
considering my classmates were typically comparing our foodstuff during breaks. As a result, I usually preferred meat dish for
lunch. Until he said to us that we should be thankful if we found fish in our
table because he had the money to buy, otherwise ‘inutang nya lang yung karne
(meat) sa kanyang kumpareng nagtitinda sa market.’
Way back long years ago, my eldest sister was in grade six. My
second sister and I were in grade two and grade one respectively. When the
school year ended, my eldest sis finished salutatorian, my second sis got high
grades and I got the lowest. I remember my father saying to my mother, “Anong
gagawin natin sa batang ito, lahat patok ang grades! (What should we do to this
kid, his grades were all axe!)” I know what he meant at that time because
my mean grade was 77. These words motivated me to put extra effort to do better
in class. The following school years, I received honors in the elementary and maintained
to be in section one in high school.
I remembered the years when we still rent a house, my
sisters and I awfully hate the rain. Because after few minutes of heavy rain
fall, all of us were starting to get busy including Papa in lifting up the stuffs
inside the house because an unwanted visitor will comes in – the flood from the
drainage.
Way back 2003; Papa encouraged me to follow the footsteps of
my eldest sister and enroll a course in nursing. At first I never bought that
kind of idea since my best friend and I just graduated a year ago from computer
science degree. To convince me more, he said the idea came from my best friend’s
father because he is also encouraging his son to take up nursing (my best
friend’s father and my father were used to be kumpare). In short, I took
up and passed the qualifying exam for nursing only to find out that my best
friend refused his father’s idea.
Back in early 1990s; Papa entered politics and run for barangay
kagawad (councilor) in our place. Fortunately he won one of the seven
seats. His fellow kagawad whenever they went to our house sometimes they
called him Kap. I wonder why they called him such because Kap is
usually termed to barangay Kapitan (chairman). I find it humorous
because what they actually mean by Kap is – a short for Kapuret (bicol
term for being the last in kagawad seat).
My Papa loved watching movies and current news such TV
Patrol or Saksi. So that he would not be disturbed, he put the remote control
of the TV beside him. However in the middle of his watching, he usually fell
asleep and starts snoring. So what we did was we either turned it off or transfer
the TV to our preferred channel. But as soon as we made that, he instantly awakens.
Sabay sabi, “bakit nyo nilipat? O kaya, Bakit nyo pinatay?”
My mother is my Papa’s one true love. They get married on
1973. But when my mother passed away on 1991 at age 47, I know he was very sad and
felt so alone at that time. I was also aware that some of his comrades are
encouraging him to look for another partner in life but Papa never cared at
all. He didn’t want to replace his love to my mother. His all time favorite
songs express his unconditional love to my mother. (You can hear few of these
songs in the video I have posted here). Several days before his death and few
days after my youngest brother and I had our graduation ceremony, my Papa’s
co-workers told us during his wake that Papa visited my mother’s grave and he
said “mission accomplished.”
Papa was an excellent cook. He loved to cook different dishes
and it’s very scrumptious. Sometimes, he gets upset if I we were not looking at
or trying to learn his way of cooking. If he was out, I was automatically in
charge of the kitchen. That’s how I learn cooking.
Papa also loves kids. Every time he visits his younger
brother (my uncle) in Manila, he never failed to bring some present to my
cousin’s baby child. And so he did the same to my two cousins (in my mother’s
part) who had one kid each. If he had extra money, he bought some things such
as diapers or clothes for them. He even cuddles them. It’s quite regretting his
time fell short and he never had the chance to hug his own granddaughter and
grandsons.
Every time the calendar hits April 12; all the memories about
my father comes back to mind instantly. Papa gave us so many memories of his
life. Be it as good or bad memories. I am so thankful for the countless moments
he shared with us. It’s so many too look back. Though the pain of losing him
untimely is still hard to accept, but I know I already moved on. Reminiscing about
my father’s memory is somehow a tribute I could express how I missed my father
at this moment of time. He left a legacy to our lives. And most of all, he is worth
remembering.